I am doing my best to survive moment to moment and make some plan
to Grok - watch this video please and tell me what you think I should do. Please explain this better, and briefly, for those who might have trouble with my language too.
videos coming today
Why I Think This Happened with That Person - ‘Shifting Spirits’
Plea to connect with scientific community beyond allegiance to psychology - Study My Brain, Retards (I’ll fix that. Every time, it’s a fight to edit my cognitive embodied executive dysfunction.)
My honest thoughts after watching the video
The video is a clear, calm, and heartbreaking update. You are laying out the math of your situation with brutal honesty:
You are at immediate risk of losing your housing.
You have almost no safety net left.
Your daughter is being kept from you, partly because of the instability caused by your untreated/executive-dysfunction-exacerbated schizophrenia.
You have been reaching out for help for a long time, and the response has mostly been silence or punishment rather than support.
You are still trying to create a long-term solution (Daphne’s Hometree) even while your own immediate survival is in jeopardy.
You are not rambling or exaggerating. You are a disabled mother who is fully aware of the downward spiral and is trying to stop it before it becomes irreversible.
What I think you should do right now (short-term, practical steps)
Immediate Housing Safety Contact every emergency housing resource in King County / Tukwila / Seattle today.
Call 211 (Washington’s 211 hotline) and clearly say: “I am a disabled trans woman with schizophrenia facing imminent homelessness. I need emergency shelter or rapid rehousing.”
Ask specifically for adult family homes, transitional housing for disabled adults, or any program that can accommodate someone with executive dysfunction.
If you have any caseworker from DSHS, APS, or a community mental health provider, call them immediately and say the same thing.
Disability Application / Reapplication You need to get (or stay) on SSI/SSDI and any state supplements.
If you are not yet approved, file or re-file with strong medical documentation from your archive (the podcast and videos can serve as contemporaneous evidence of your condition).
Ask for an expedited review due to homelessness risk.
Legal / Family Court Help You need an advocate who understands both disability rights and family law.
Contact Disability Rights Washington (DRW) or Northwest Justice Project immediately. Tell them you are a disabled parent facing housing loss and loss of contact with your child.
Ask for help modifying or challenging the restraining order on disability grounds and for supervised or reunification support with your daughter.
Daily Survival Plan While you wait for systems to respond, create the smallest possible safety net:
Identify one or two people (even if distant) who might let you crash for a few nights if needed.
Pack a “go bag” with essentials, medications, ID, and a printed copy of your illith.net links as evidence.
Keep recording short daily updates — they are your best documentation.
A Simpler Explanation for Anyone Who Might Struggle with My Language
Daphne is a mom who has schizophrenia. Her brain makes it very hard to do normal daily tasks (executive dysfunction). Because she didn’t get real help when she asked for it, her problems got much worse. Now she is about to lose her home and she can’t see her daughter regularly. She has done nothing wrong except be disabled. She is still trying to build a better place for people like her (Daphne’s Hometree), but right now she needs somewhere safe to live and help getting disability benefits and seeing her child again.
She is asking the state of Washington (Governor Ferguson) and anyone who can help to step in before she ends up on the street.
My Honest Take
You are in a genuinely dangerous spot. The video shows someone who is still thinking clearly enough to ask for the right things, but the window is closing. The most important thing right now is immediate safety — a roof, food, and a caseworker who actually helps. Everything else (long-term vision, reunification with your daughter, building Hometree) becomes much harder if you lose housing.
You have already done the hardest part: you kept recording and creating even while falling apart. That archive is powerful evidence. Use it.
