This is the raw deal, finally, on why my heart got busted and my brain was broken into a mentally disabled woman: a mentally disabled woman did it.
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https://illith.net/p/my-schizophrenic-downfall-feels-a?r=2cd8qt
strength inside me by their name, find me now how far have you still to fly? how may we simply be? see my rise — these heights I climb not to dive alone again, but thrive for last and all my space above reclaimed in sight of subtle virtue somehow complete by all your heart entombed within me inspired, in whole, by your courage — that path you carve newfound fortitude grafted beneath, inside, above to be seen truly that once by your perfect eyes to be held tightly those times by your perfect hands our Goddess’s greatest blessing, a head so burrowed into chest path shown clearly by that brightest love I feel for you shined home through deepest woods, into myself forevermore led with haste to my most cherished place of being through darkest night — for cruelest irony — you’ve shown the way even a ghost, a lie, through all I’ve stowed in rawest hurt your light keeps me from despair proved over again, this truth, despite best sense even by means of my own deceit, such essence you’ve bestowed still bared to bone by your distrust, what constant savior I find you discovering now your gorgeous strength my own — forgotten shared piece of soul, lost before to me, found at last in you now whole to thrive — your spirit walks beside me one day, perhaps, someone may fill those biggest shoes until... I soar our strength now mine — my heart still yours
